Thursday, January 02, 2014

How I Became Alfie

You really don't want to know my real name, do you?  It's pretty boring and mundane.  What people ask me about is "How did  you get the name, Alfie?"  (That's after we've established that it isn't 'short' for something else, like Alfreda, or something.)

It is one of my favorite stories. My husband named me. He has a tendency to nick name everyone, and for some reason, he's good enough at it, his nick names stick.

Since I'm six inches shorter than he is, when we first started dating in college, he'd call me elf.  Just randomly.  Not all the time.  Mostly, he used my given name.  (I suspect with his knack for nicknaming, he knew it wasn't right yet.) Elf gradually became Alf--and he used that more.  Then one day it was Alfie and that he used almost always instead of my name.  But he was the only one who called me that.

Until we'd been married about five years and we'd just moved for the 3rd time.  He'd accepted his first job in management at the phone company and--though up until then, I'd always had a job, I didn't get one when we got to Osage City, KS.  I was about 7 months pregnant at the time so it seemed pretty pointless.

When we'd been in Osage about a week, his staff at the phone company had a pot luck dinner to 'welcome' us to town.  They invited all of the employees as well as various business men and city boosters and dignitaries and for the most part, it was very informal, with an hour or so of mingling and happy hour prior to the actual dinner.  It was approaching time for the actual dinner and the minor formalities to begin and I was feeling very strange and sort of isolated.  Dan was doing his thing, moving about, talking to people, making friends and influencing people.  I was kind of standing at the side of the room, watching and letting people come to me.

One of his office group approached me with her hand out and a huge smile and I could tell this was someone I was going to like.  She gave me her name as she gave me her hand and I returned the favor, saying, "Nice to meet you.  I'm Vivian."  (Ok, I'm giving you that much. See why I wasn't really anxious?)

The smile disappeared immediately. The look on the poor woman's face was nothing short of shocked and appalled--with maybe a little awe thrown in for good measure.  And I was instantly confused and hesitant.  And THEN Dan joined us and said, "Alfie, I want you to..." whatever it was he wanted me to do.

The woman's face suddenly looked like a light bulb went off and I suddenly had a light bulb of my very own over my head.  Obviously, Dan had been talking affectionately about "Alfie" at work and when he finally showed up with a wife, it was an very pregnant woman named "Vivian." I quickly re-introduced myself as Alfie and everyone was smiling after that.

I officially gave up trying to be Vivian after that.  Life sure got easier and I've gradually grown into the name that everyone believes fits.  (Except my family and friends who knew me 'when.'  Sometimes addressing Christmas cards and remembering which person should sign them gets tricky.) See, I told you he was good at nicknaming people.

My biggest disappointment was when Harlequin wouldn't let me use it as my pen name when I was signing my first contract with them and they were requiring everyone to take pen names.  Since the line I was writing for had a huge following in Great Britain, they worried that everyone there would think I was male since Alfie is a male name there. 

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Happy 2014!

I've seen a lot of posts in the first four hours of this bright new year about letting go...of people, of things, of feelings, of...lots of things.

In the past week, I've realized there were many things in my life that I've let go of too quickly.  Yeah, many things it was easy to hold on to way too long--like old hurts and, definitely, lots of old baggage. But I've had a lot of relationships I let go of too quickly and moved on.  Some were from actually physically moving on.  Either the friend moved or I moved or work situations changed or whatever.  If I could have a do over, I would have made a lot bigger effort to hold on for dear life to some of those friends.  Yes, we're (mostly) still friends, but they've turned into the dear old acquaintance type friends instead of the really close current kind.  And I regret that letting go.

If I could teach someone younger anything about eventual regrets, it would be to truly evaluate and be very careful how quickly you let go.  Somethings are very important to let go.  Some things--mostly people--are really important to hold on to for dear life.  Think long and hard about which things are which, because you generally can't pick up where you left off if you let go too willingly.